After 6 year and 4 months of emotional, mental and sexual abuse, in the past few weeks I finally found my voice to say enough was enough and end the torment.
I would watch shows like Law and Order SVU and be sick to my stomach at the things that the characters would say in defense of their boyfriends or husbands. Little did I see; I did the same thing. For 6 years I’ve battled with myself internally, defending everything he did. Subconsciously I knew, but I didn’t want to admit it. I didn’t want to admit that I had let myself get wrangled into an abusive relationship.
My now ex has fathered two children with two women. His first was born 3 months prior to us getting into a relationship, the other born last month, December 2014. He cheated on me numerous times that I know of and God knows how many times I don’t. I spent hundreds, more like thousands of dollars on him and his family, because he didn’t have it and he would take advantage of my sensitive nature and talk me into giving him even more. He’d tell me that he loves me and that he’s sorry. If I didn’t have sex with him, it was “you don’t love me, otherwise you would.” I dealt with it…because he said it “jokingly”. For 6 years I never received a birthday present, Christmas present. He never celebrated any holidays with me. He never even took me on a real date without me having to beg, but if I begged too much I wouldn’t hear from him for weeks sometimes.
I’d be a liar if I said I never loved my ex, but the person that he turned into is no longer the same person that I fell in love with. Today I take back my life. This moment is the moment I begin to make strides towards a bigger and brighter future professionally and personally.
To all the women out there that read this, and maybe see themselves in my words, get help. Abuse is not only physical, it IS mental and emotional.
YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE!
Below I’m linking a few different websites for anyone who feels or knows someone who is involved in a abusive relationship.
For Arizona Residents
Today is the beginning of a wonderful life!